Aku Mohon Kekuatan

Untukku meminta hanya yang baik² setiap hari adalah hal yang mustahil. 

Maka aku hanya minta untuk kuat disetiap detik hidupku yang diuji wahai Tuhan...

Booster Dose For The 3 Of Us

Completed our booster dose on the second week we have been here . 

Their 1st and 2nd dose was with daddy and this time around turn dengan mummy. It is because, coincidentally klinik kat sini ada walk in PPV. Mudahlah untuk kitorang 😍

Alhamdulillah one task has completed!! Looking forward for another task to be done 😊

Demi Mereka Yang Menyayangi, Demi Keluargamu Disini.

Hari ini,
Mereka semakin matang dan mampu mengatasi segala kebimbangan dan rasa terasing yang telah membelenggu mereka sebelum ini.

Hari ini,
Mereka sudah mampu berbangga dengan percampuran darah dan kelebihan melanin dalam tubuh mereka,
Seperti sirna sudah perasaan terasing mereka dulu.

Hari ini,
Telah mereka temui semangat.
Seiring usia yang menginjak dewasa,
Ibu ini sudah mampu bernafas lega,
We manage to face this battle together.

 
Hari ini,
Kita terus hadap sama²,
hadap segala apa yang datang,
Walaupun mungkin suatu hari nanti kalian akan melangkah keluar dari tanah ini - tempat dimana tumpahnya darahmu.
Pastikan kamu melangkah dengan maruah.
Demi mereka yang menyayangi,
Demi keluargamu disini.

#inirumahkamu
#homesweethome
#youllneverwalkalone
#ipromiseifulfill

We Moved To Taiping Again (This Time For Good) - First Blog In 2022

21st February 2022 - Here we (kids and I) are again, Taiping.

Close to my family which I never know how to describe about (my feeling). So many things that I would like to share with the world but I am not sure if the there is anyone that have the interest to know about it. But referring to my therapist, sharing (via writing) is one of the distraction methods that I can apply to reduce my instability due to the anxiety disorder.

In October 2022, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. Been through relapse and defaulted episodes for few times, I think I want to start making videos on YouTube regarding this matter. Mental health matter for the sake of mental health awareness. But I never have the courage to do that,

I believe this covid-19 pandemic turned me into my current condition. Separation anxiety (almost 2 years with my interracial husband), lost of job and income, Became disabled due to bilateral hypertensive retinopathy (retinal vascular damage caused by hypertension). 

The struggle is damn real, till then...