Wednesday, August 29, 2018

Pejamkan Mata - Malique

Halus seni ayatnya.

Setiap mahakarya insan nan satu ini berhasil menzahirkan apa yang aku rasa. Terlalu dekat dengan hati aku...

Sangat dekat!!!!

...dan Sebermula maka dipaksa diam,
Dengar - patuh dan terpaku tunduk,
Selesakan di bawah sujudnya rujuk telunjuk,
Tenagamu kencanaku katanya fitrah gawai,
Kedanamu ketawaku dekahnya hingga sawai,
Berontak dongak lembayung ku,
Ternampakkan si hering, Menyorak ngoyak awan, Canggung dan berantakan,
Dah diragut total,
Cinta resiprokal,
Bila dipersoal kekal equivocal,
Katanya tanggal tali leher itu,
Cukuplah seharian digembala,
Lupuskan logarithma yang menghantui kepala,
Dalam tafakur - akur - sadur mimpi yang dikabur,
Karektor kartun kantor dan karikatur dictator,
Dikabur takbur shabab yang bermusim,
Tak punya tempat di benak jiwaku,
Jemaah mereka bermukim -

Al-malik, al-kudus, as salam, al-Mukmin

Ubat gementar senja suara ngekor roh ke kasur,
Masyghul, runsing

Aku terdengar suara itu lagi,
Dari tenggara namaku diseru,
Disuruh hembusnya lilin di setiap empat penjuru,
Katanya mata penamu tak mencoret solusi,
Kata magismu takkan mampu cetus revolusi,
Manusia kan sentiasa menyakiti,
Yang tak membunuh buatmu kebal sehari lagi,
Masa untuk koktel Lorazepam, Ambien, Risperdal,
Semoga afdal bertemu di astral,
Selamat tiba kita ke republik cinta,
Lagenda dimensi ruang dan waktu,
Tak bersempadan,
Halaman terbentang suci - dicuci noda dan nista,
Terhapus dogma dan stigma, kepincangan dan kehilangan
Arasy yang tiada penghuni mengugut buli,
Tak perlukan runut bunyi, s
Sembunyi bersunyi sakan di hati dan pituitari menarinya tanpa bumi,
Menyanyinya tanpa bunyi, keghaibannya kita raikan..

Hakikatnya nirvana di sana,
Di sini masih lagi samsara,
Cuba tak diperhambanya dunia,
Sukar tapi aku cuba...
Sukar tapi aku cuba ya...

Tuesday, August 28, 2018

My Kinda Solution & Contribution...


teamdrrafidah #teammedic
My personal view, solution and contribution on this issue - the dressars & co. facebook post (dated 28 August 2018)


Ni bkn tentang melayu nak bunuh melayu or nak tabur pasir dalam periuk nasik sebangsa ke ape.

Awareness Dr. Rafidah ni melangkaui fonemena yang lebih kritikal dari tu.

Buah pinggang umpama nyawa kehidupan, hanya individu yang berdepan dengan risiko kerosakkan buah pinggang aje yang mengerti maksud Dr. Rafidah ni agaknya.

Yang marah jangan melenting tapi belajarlah. Ambil tahu kenapa kempen kesedaran seperti ini terpaksa di gerakkan secara "agresif".

I have lost my uncle due to kidney failure berasbabkan produk supplement drink berasaskan protein dari kekacang. Indeed, he's a chronic diabetic and gout. He possibly takde knowledge yg product tu might harm him.

I have witnessed his wife jaga dia dgn diabetic management yg baik ikut saranan doktor dan he's health condition sangat stabil until on the day his cousin datang promote produk tu kononnya baik untuk supply all vitamins yg dia perlu which is at the exact time, dia diharamkan dari mengambil apa² supplement berasaskan market's product. 

Halangan wife dan anak² pun dah tak diendah sebabnya zaman tu belum ada media social yang mampu spread awareness aggressively. Apa kata founder tu la yang terbaik, kerana pada dia founder dah guaranty supplement ni bagus. Why doubt kan!!

Just 3 weeks (sort of) after that, he passed on.

Yes, indeed. Masa dan ajal dia dah sampai. Mungkin dia yg 'cari nahas' cus dah tahu sakit but still nak consume the product. But things clearly can be controlled and avoided. 

Did he aware about the effects at the first place? 
Did he know that the product might be his killer?

This is what Dr Rafidah is doing - she's spreading awareness for the controls and avoids damage. 

Ini kerana kes nephro dikalangan individu kurang dari 40 tahun di Malaysia kini berada pada tahap yang sangat membimbangkan. 

Kerisauan yg patut timbul haruslah beyond than risaukan poket orang melayu/ibu tunggal rata²nya.

Maybe kalau knowledge such as what Dr. Rafidah sebarkan ni ada by that era, possibly he won't b manipulated.

Sellers shouldn't melenting, gula pun mudarat, cuma awareness of the effects pengambilan gula berlebihan need to go seiring with the penjualan supaya customers can be aware.

Drugs as well, dgn prescription yang tak terkawal it can be racun dan pembunuh instead of sepatutnya it supposedly to be penawar.

Konklusinya, apapun if berlebihan - might harm - Life taught me that. Its wrong to live in denial even truth may hurts.






Sunday, August 26, 2018

Pulang



26 Ogos 2018 ~~
Selesai 55 bab < 24 jam.

Noktah barisan ayat terakhir aku habisi dengan perasaan yang bercampur baur.

Hairan.

Mengapa wujudnya segolongan insan yang tegar memilih untuk pendamkan segala rasa hingga berakhir dengan derita.

Luahkan dan berhadapanlah dengan hidup yang diinginkan agar hati tidak tertanya². Sesungguhnya, seribu satu perkara yang ternampak zahir tidak selalu seerti dengan batinnya.

Luahkanlah supaya semua mengerti dan tiada yang merenta dihati...

Sunday, August 19, 2018

Black Skin Barbie Dolls Is Dope!!!!

Black barbie doll ni actually dapat naikkan semangat dark skin or African mixed girls so that diorang lebih menghargai diri and kecantikan sendiri.

Our girls really need this kind of stuffs, this is because this type of toys dpt encourage them to appreciate their own self.

Twins time kecik² dulu just main barbie fair skin long & straight hair. Bila meningkat usia awal remaja, they always rasa down and nakkan fair skin and rambut panjang and lurus mcm Barbie diorang. But since they knew that ada Barbie with afro curly coily and kinky hair macam ni, even dh tua bangka still beriya suruh beli sebab kata diorang dark skin barbie ni rare unik and special.

There you go!!!

Mummy pun cakap la, that is how 'world' looking at you. As unik and beautiful as this black barbie dolls 😊

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Friday, August 17, 2018

The Happiest Momma On Earth

Today, just 2 of us.

Adik tak ikut, nak stay at home sebab tunggu drama TV3 pukul 7. Her favorite artist - ayda jebat berlakon. So, dengan rasminya dia akan cancel semua activity antara 7pm - 8pm sampailah habis drama episode ni, zumba class pun dia postpone sanggup dia xikut.

Actually, kitorang nak pegi beli barang dapo, but before sampai market, my baby girl (yang not so baby anymore) asked me to stop by the lake garden. Nak lepak² tepi tasik katanya.

Mummy pun stop tepi and jalan² keliling tasik sambil² take picture kakak.

Those smile and her hair. Jarang sangat kitorang outing dengan rambut segojes dan shiny macam ni. All this hasil we attend curly hair workshop last 2 weeks. Outing was always with dry and messy fro before but no more now!!!

She's so happy and confident nowadays. I'm the happiest momma on earth 💖💖💖







Monday, August 6, 2018

Malaysia's First Ever Curly & Coily Hair Workshop 1.0

Malaysia's 1st ever curly and coily hair workshop 1.0 is a success yeayyy.

Because the 'battle' between asian moms and our girl's afro is real!!!

Organized by our pretty african asian mixed sweetheart - Fadeela.

Wonderful workshop which is so enjoyable not only for the kids, but for the moms as well.


Fadeela, her sister, Hikma and I

Its truly knowledgeable. Here is some sharing. For this process, we need to prepare:-

1) Honey


southcoastsun.co.za

2) Hair oil (could be coconut/olive/any possible oil for hair)

nutrion.org.uk

3) Shower cap

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4) Water spray

amazon.com

5) Hair band

amazon.com

6) Cantu moisturizing curly and coily hair activator.
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Let's get started.

1) Start with water spray, honey and oil mixture with 3:1 part 3 part of honey : 1part of oil.
(Can be any type of oil which possible to use for hair as our DIY hair mask, water is needed to wet moist their hair)



2) Apply honey and oil mixture (DIY hair mask) to the scalp thoroughly and cover their hair with shower cap for maximum 20 minutes.



3) After 20 minutes, rinse their hair with shampoo.

4) Apply Cantu moisturizing curly and coily hair activator accordingly, and you're done!!!




Things we should put extra attention:-

1)  Don't apply shampoo on their hair tips, this is because curly and coil hair received its natural moisturizer slower than straight hair according to its physical texture (curl and coil) shampoo on their hair tips can caused terrible dryness since shampoo would wash out the natural hair moisturizer before it reach the tips. Shampoo on their scalp is good enough.

2) Use thick hair bands (not thin ones) to avoid breakage

3) Comb gently, finger comb is the best, wide tooth comb is also good.

4) Don't wash their hair frequently, once a week is still fine. This type of hair will be just fine (even better) even though they didn't wash it for 1 week. This is because the natural moisturizer manage to finished its journey to completely moist the hair.

Now I know, why chiomyra's hair always dry!!!!

5) Don't blow/iron (straighten) their hair because the heat may damage their hair.

We really had a great fun!!!!





If anyone wants to get the cantu moisturizing curly hair activator, can contact Fadee through her Fb: Fadeela Al-Hassan

VOILA!!!!


Thursday, August 2, 2018

Emotion Control


#afterschoolscenario the moment she enter the car this afternoon, #chioma told me some ladies request nak snaps picture together since they attracted to her hair but she refused.

I asked why, she said "karang diorang viral mummy", 🤔🤔 make sense jugak lah..

Sometimes, I wish she (and her twins) know how impress my people would be towards their uniqueness and adore them so much due to their looks.

Unfortunately, too much attention make them uncomfortable. What they wanted all this while from people around them is just to treat them normal rather than obviously take them as 'different' or unique.

It's ok girls..
Your command is my wish 😜😜

Then, I remind her (as I always did) the rejection must come with manners, politely thank them eventhough we might not happy with it. It's emotion controls my dear 😊

#illneverstopguidingthem
#lifelesson

Kisah suami aku N****, kau peduli apa?



Jangan menangis wahai ibunda.
Lapkan air matamu.
Let's get together with 'em in this battle and they'll be okay insyallah.

Kita ni kuat, sebab tu tuhan uji kita dengan cara ini (jodoh dengan lelaki kulit hitam).

Twins pun pernah berada dlm situasi ni. At government school, diorang always balik demotivated, unhappy dan tak bersemangat dengan persekitaran sekolah, twins ni type yang sangat suka ke sekolah, sangat aktif dengan aktiviti sekolah, pernah wakili zon dalam sukan bola jaring, wakil sekolah acara tarian, masuk macam² kelab dan aktiviti kokurikulum but diorang still tak happy dengan persekitaran (atas semua faktor) almost the same situation dengan 'anak yang menangis' dalam post ni sampaikan akedemik diorang effect teruk.

I decide to 'search' for the environment they need since and change following "what they need" rather than "what they have to".

I nekad, diorang dipindah sekolah yang pelajar disitu semua bukan warganegara Malaysia (dan ramai juga pelajar Afrika even tak sekelas dengan diorang - untuk buat diorang rasa belonging) dan hire seorang personal tutor untuk diorang. This is hard, demi Allah, berat hati nak decide at first. Tapi, I knew that I perlu nekad.

Once and for all ~~~

Syukur, ank² yang almost depression ni (sebab dah berada dalam keadaan anxiety sejak sekian lama bersekolah dan menahan emosi, lagi² dah menginjak usia remaja) lebih positif dan happy now. If dulu malu nak cakap, nak share apa² tentang daddy or family Nigeria diorang, banyak diam in public. Now, lots of changing. Bangga bercerita tentang their mixed family even sampai nak bawa bekal suji and egusi soup pegi sekolah. No more malu or demotivated macam dulu, even gambar nenek Nigeria pun bawak bg cikgu² tgk, klu dulu selagi blh sorok, diorang sorok. Takut family kena hina/ketawa.

Untuk bantu mereka, persekitaran is the main factor - no doubt.

Sorry to say kalau ank² bangsa kita yg dominasi, itulah ceritanya. Tak tau la apa yang silap. Ibu bapa ke atau anak itu sendiri yg memang nakal. Tak pasti juga sampai bila.

Whatsoever, mental health anak² kita tak mampu tunggu. Kita yang kena 'cari dan cipta' persekitaran yang baik untuk mereka. I took all the possibilities, risks and chances -  lepaskan hak keistimewaan (pendidikan under KPM) dan memilih utk isolate diri kitorang dari hak tersebut demi persekitaran yang membahagiakan buat diorang.

I never regret & will never be.
I wish to end this masterpiece with "..and we all live happily ever after" 😊😊😊

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